FUTURE. I've been trying to avoid this word for the longest time. I am a very fickle-minded and rash person, and sometimes to the point it ruins me, I lose hope in myself, in the things I do, and get so negative and skeptical about everything. When I take that bubbly, happy-go-lucky mask down, all that's left is an empty shell, the insecure and perhaps crazy me starts to surface. Last January, I made a rash decision to go to a polytechnic instead of a JC, simply feeling that getting a specialised diploma might get me somewhere instead of an A Level cert. I didn't learnt my lesson, and I made another rash decision last September under the influence of a few people, and that has probably ruined my supposedly "better future", I could have graduated from SP, get into a uni, get a degree, masters, whatever, and move on to work. However, the greed of money, wanting to succeed so desperately overpowered me, I quitted my diploma and decided to work full-time for a marketing company, hoping to make my mark there. Of course, if I had a stronger mentality, a better mindset, I might have succeeded and made it to where I wanted to be. As I'm waiting for my entry to SIM this October, I really wonder, where does my future lie? I fall harder and harder each time round, I really hoped I learnt this time round, and grew up. Through these lessons, I've seen what lies beneath humanity and mankind, and how ugly things get sometimes. Live life to the fullest, sounds cliche but yeah,I agree. I hope it's not too late now?